Depression: How It Feels Like

I know I know it’s out of nowhere. This is my first post of 2018 and yet I have to give you emo writing.

Yes, I’m having severe depression and quite mild social anxiety (or just anxiety?)—followed by anger management problems and negativistic/pessimistic trait.

My depression occurred around 2016. At that time, I had to face several stressing situations: internship, being heart-broken, the death of beloved cat, life after graduation, etc.  It might be easier for common people to get past those things, but I’m not one of them. I’m a malfunctioning INTP.

I have to struggle with my depression since then. It won’t let go of me—it gets worse each day. It is part of me now—I have to accept it. Pretending I’m OK had only made it worse. This is why I wrote this post. It’s a way to deal with my reoccurring depression and move on with life.

So, how it’s like to be engulfed in depression? Continue reading


A Way to Decipher True Love


(Note: I should have posted this one on Valentine’s day but I was lazy af to finish it LOL)

Love is undeniably an interesting subject. Even for me—a rather skeptic heartless Thinker, Love has made its way beside Time and Fate (Universe/Cosmos, whatever you call it) as biggest mysteries in my life. So, even though I am really sucks at social life (even more in romantic relationship, I don’t usually consider it important in my life), the concept of Love in general is always able to aroused my curiosity. day dreaming

So, what is True Love? What does it stand for? For all my life, I had born with the saying in my religion that we—humans—are born in pairs. I’d like to comment that it has two major impacts among my people: Continue reading